Thoughts about love...
It's always been a weird theme for me... I don't think I ever found love !
I've been "in love" tons of times... i'm also today lol this time it might be for real well i'll know more in february, it's a difficult thing.
I've had only one boyfriend by now even though nobody really knows that... he was one of the most popular guys of the school so I think I was just one in a million of girls he dated, it went on for 4 months then I said bye bye, I was too afraid to be dumped that I dumped him.
After that relationship life put a huge obstacle in front of me keeping my wide away from love: BRACES! Not only they made me shy-er than I already was but I stopped smiling which kinda sucked.
I had some "avance" by guys but they were stupid or 40 years old or 11 years old... so nobody really interesting.
I'm still wearing those friggin braces but since last year I gathered some self confidence... and started smiling infact I "met" my future husband ( cheeeesy and naive.. i know) making him a huge smile.
My dentist told me he would remove them on the 17th of Semptembre but well it's the 30th of Decembre and I still have them... I hope that at least til the 4th of February they will be gone so that I can give my husband a real smile !
Another thing about love that really sucks is that... maybe you're not even feeling that sad or alone until all your friends are in relationships, so that everytime, maybe you want to go for a shop or something, they always are busy with their bf's.
Also tomorrow evening will be great I'll be alone with 4 couples... lovely !
Well now a secret I can't hide: I'm happy when one of the 3 couples I don't like has problems... there's just one couple I actually like.. he's my best friend and she's my best friend I really hope they're going to get married.
but... Shhh !!
Well after these thoughts I really hope 2010 will be better for my love situation... cause after the long "Love abstinence" I really feel scared about relationships... need self confidence.
Wish you all (if there's someone) a happy new year
may it bring you love, happyness, luck and health.
Ombeline
Ps: expect something new for 2010 I got an idea today but looks what Lily's saying "shhh..." so top secret.
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